Leaving home. Again.

"This feeling...

its so familiar."

4 weeks ago, I was due for a student theological course in my church (True Jesus Church). While I had been looking forward to it all the while, I was having second thoughts overshadowing my excitement.

i.e. I was lazy to pack.

*coughs* Well, that's only one of the reasons. Deep down, I honestly felt a little sian that having 3 weeks subtracted off my holidays just like that (especially since the hols end soon of after that). Before the course started on 2nd Dec I had already visited 10-odd shopping malls, and hung out with 20-odd of my acquaintances. However, I knew I hadn't even scraped a fraction of Singapore's shopping centres (a good fren pointed that i *still* need more life lols) and I wanted to do more. Furthermore, school had been so hectic this year I was about to crack, so this holiday was supposed to be for me to slack off lor... =(

What's more, my reasearch project is due soon. (oh crap. i just noticed.)

So yea... before the course, I felt excitement and yet at the same time I felt a sense of... whaddya call it... um... reservation?

Of course, thankfully, through the course I gradually felt that the time spent there was worth it (for those who are concerned over what I wrote above, do not worry)

NOW.

After a week back home, I suddenly find myself compelled to pack up my stuff again, in the same way as I did 4 weeks ago, with the same large luggage, with the same huge pile of neccesities (albeit with a few new clothes, those new clothes are really cool) , awaiting the same long stay away from home.

What's it with staying away from home that's so great?

The independence you gain?

The rules you have to obey?

The friends you meet?

The experiences that await you?

If you want me to be honest, I still prefer staying at home.

No, don't get me wrong. All those above are in some way or another cool with me. But I'm once again feeling the same thing as I did last time. A sense of... um... well I can't think of any word for this feeling except reservation.

I can't bear to leave my home. (again)

I can't bear to part with my bed. (again)

I can't bear to part with my messy desk. (again)

I can't bear to lose the times where I can just sit back in my room and do whatever I want (considering that thr's STUDY TIME -.-)

Sigh. Oh well. Time to accept reality. Off to pack up the remaining stuff I need for my check-in. =)

Theolo: out of sight, but always in my mind

Izzit me, or did theolo 2008 pass like wind? lols

It's been 23 days of routine living. How can I ever feel normal once i stop? Sigh feel super sian feel like going back thr again. Had to leave cos i didnt have clothes. PISH

Indeed it was a high point of my holiday despite it having the most amount of mugging that i'll ever have in a holiday. The closeness with God, and the fellowship with the brethren (Murderer was awesome), the plain bread we eat, the funny things that happen, and a whole lot of idiotic laughs mixed in, will be an experience i'll rmb for yrs to come. (Last yr's theolo pales in comparison lor)

So from now on its no more waking up in a dark dorm, brushing teeth looking like a zombie, bathing, going to classroom to catch fish, eating all that home cooked food (The food rock, u stone), praying tgt with all the bros n sis n singing hymns.

In addition, one thing that i most value this yr's theolo for is the big revelation of my character's most fundamental flaws. It dawned upon me like the sun man. xD And I resolved to correct them, by the aid of His mighty hand. =)

ITS THE END LA... I havent studied nuts for my organic chem!!!!

oh well, that's flaw number 1.