"This feeling...
its so familiar."
4 weeks ago, I was due for a student theological course in my church (True Jesus Church). While I had been looking forward to it all the while, I was having second thoughts overshadowing my excitement.
i.e. I was lazy to pack.
*coughs* Well, that's only one of the reasons. Deep down, I honestly felt a little sian that having 3 weeks subtracted off my holidays just like that (especially since the hols end soon of after that). Before the course started on 2nd Dec I had already visited 10-odd shopping malls, and hung out with 20-odd of my acquaintances. However, I knew I hadn't even scraped a fraction of Singapore's shopping centres (a good fren pointed that i *still* need more life lols) and I wanted to do more. Furthermore, school had been so hectic this year I was about to crack, so this holiday was supposed to be for me to slack off lor... =(
What's more, my reasearch project is due soon. (oh crap. i just noticed.)
So yea... before the course, I felt excitement and yet at the same time I felt a sense of... whaddya call it... um... reservation?
Of course, thankfully, through the course I gradually felt that the time spent there was worth it (for those who are concerned over what I wrote above, do not worry)
NOW.
After a week back home, I suddenly find myself compelled to pack up my stuff again, in the same way as I did 4 weeks ago, with the same large luggage, with the same huge pile of neccesities (albeit with a few new clothes, those new clothes are really cool) , awaiting the same long stay away from home.
What's it with staying away from home that's so great?
The independence you gain?
The rules you have to obey?
The friends you meet?
The experiences that await you?
If you want me to be honest, I still prefer staying at home.
No, don't get me wrong. All those above are in some way or another cool with me. But I'm once again feeling the same thing as I did last time. A sense of... um... well I can't think of any word for this feeling except reservation.
I can't bear to leave my home. (again)
I can't bear to part with my bed. (again)
I can't bear to part with my messy desk. (again)
I can't bear to lose the times where I can just sit back in my room and do whatever I want (considering that thr's STUDY TIME -.-)
Sigh. Oh well. Time to accept reality. Off to pack up the remaining stuff I need for my check-in. =)
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Theolo: out of sight, but always in my mind
Izzit me, or did theolo 2008 pass like wind? lols
It's been 23 days of routine living. How can I ever feel normal once i stop? Sigh feel super sian feel like going back thr again. Had to leave cos i didnt have clothes. PISH
Indeed it was a high point of my holiday despite it having the most amount of mugging that i'll ever have in a holiday. The closeness with God, and the fellowship with the brethren (Murderer was awesome), the plain bread we eat, the funny things that happen, and a whole lot of idiotic laughs mixed in, will be an experience i'll rmb for yrs to come. (Last yr's theolo pales in comparison lor)
So from now on its no more waking up in a dark dorm, brushing teeth looking like a zombie, bathing, going to classroom to catch fish, eating all that home cooked food (The food rock, u stone), praying tgt with all the bros n sis n singing hymns.
In addition, one thing that i most value this yr's theolo for is the big revelation of my character's most fundamental flaws. It dawned upon me like the sun man. xD And I resolved to correct them, by the aid of His mighty hand. =)
ITS THE END LA... I havent studied nuts for my organic chem!!!!
oh well, that's flaw number 1.
It's been 23 days of routine living. How can I ever feel normal once i stop? Sigh feel super sian feel like going back thr again. Had to leave cos i didnt have clothes. PISH
Indeed it was a high point of my holiday despite it having the most amount of mugging that i'll ever have in a holiday. The closeness with God, and the fellowship with the brethren (Murderer was awesome), the plain bread we eat, the funny things that happen, and a whole lot of idiotic laughs mixed in, will be an experience i'll rmb for yrs to come. (Last yr's theolo pales in comparison lor)
So from now on its no more waking up in a dark dorm, brushing teeth looking like a zombie, bathing, going to classroom to catch fish, eating all that home cooked food (The food rock, u stone), praying tgt with all the bros n sis n singing hymns.
In addition, one thing that i most value this yr's theolo for is the big revelation of my character's most fundamental flaws. It dawned upon me like the sun man. xD And I resolved to correct them, by the aid of His mighty hand. =)
ITS THE END LA... I havent studied nuts for my organic chem!!!!
oh well, that's flaw number 1.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
100 question-thing
Egged on by my sister a while ago i finally got bored enough to start doing this quiz. So here goes...
01. What have you been doing recently? trying to get a life :)
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off? hardly bah...
03. What happened at 10.00am today? sending off a cousin back home at the airport with tears in my heart ... because theolo's coming (ps it passes damned quickly despite being like 23 days) and my hols are gonna be over right after tt.
04. When did you last cry? hmm recently :)
05. Believe in fate/destiny? nvr think abt such things. shit happens, period.
06. What do you want in your life right now? companionship (yes both quality and quantity count)
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood? umbrella
08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed? the pillow.
9. What bottom are you wearing now? shorts.
10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say? "i miss u all again" - my cousin.
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated? no idea man.
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone? no.
13. What was the last movie you caught? madagascar 2
14. What are you proud of? My nice laptop :)
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say? "What time?"
16. What was the last song you sang out loud? i just came back from church... so u get the idea
17.Do you have any nicknames? No. i dunno if i should b happy or not. xD
18. What does your last received text message say? U have missed calls from...
19. What time did you go to bed last night? i didnt
20. Are you currently happy? HECK NO. my hols are almost over.
21. Who gives you best advice? my family and friends.
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can? whipped cream makes u fat. throw that white turd away.
23. Who did you talk on phone last night? no one.
24. Is anything bugging you right now? yea. i m still mourning over my soon-ending hols
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh? Some church frens
26. Do you wear toe socks? a little
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from? i missed hundreds of calls. no idea
28. Have you ever had your heart broken? i guess so.
29. What annoys you most in a person? hmm nvr thot of that
30. Do you have a crush on anyone? well i used to
31. Have you ever done cocaine? nope. im very guai one. =)
32. What is the colour of your room?A light shade of cream
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars? honestly if it werent morally wrong i'd probably do it even if it cost me a billion dollars. but hey, hatred is a rare for me. seriously. :)
34. Do you believe in the saying of : talk is cheap? in a sense yes, cos its absolutely free.
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed? me.
36. Who was the last person to hug you? if im not wrong its my cousin xD
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed? i havent kissed anyone
38. Do you have a life? im trying to get one
39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didnt die? hmm nvr did
40. What is the reason behind your profile song? i have 31 of them -.-
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream? who bothers to rmb such shit
42. Last time you smiled? moments ago
43. Have you changed this year? yes. radically.
44. What are you listening right now? nothing... thankfully unlike my sister who was bothered by all that construction noise while doing this quiz
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this? no, sadly.
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed? well DUH open u idiot
47. Is there a quote you live by? no
48. Do you want someone you cannot have? hmm yupp i want them as my frens but i can nvr have them as my own (that would b selfish)
49. Have you ever played an instrument? yes. still playin it man
50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week? facebooking till 1am
51. What are you doing last night at 11pm? playing UNO with my sisters and getting owned
52. Are you happy with your love life right now? i dont have one.
53. What song best describe your love life? dude i said i dont have one
54. Does the person know that you like him/her? wrong question *slap*
55. Who always make you laugh? nice grammar lols. no one in particular, jus random humour from random ppl here n there
56. Do you speak other language other than English? Chinese Hokkien
57. Favourite website(s)? facebook, blogger, friendster, and wikipedia
58. What's your middle name? i dont have one
59. What are you doing tomorrow? packing for theolo
60. What do you think you are like? kitano from angel dendetsu
61. Who will you choose to die with? life's too good for one to choose to die, but in extreme cases mayb my family (includes wife n kids).
62. Where have you been today?home n church n senai
63. What game do you play often?Spore.
64. Who are you missing right now? maybe my cousins
65. If you have to choose between friendship and love, who will you choose? i wont choose. ill throw u off and get both xD c'mon guys both r important la
66. What are you doing right now?this 100 question thing
67. Which primary school are you from? Rulang Pri
68. Name 3 colours that you like? pick any 3
69. What emotion do you like to show? amusement
70. What is your life to you? the only thing i would exchange my life for
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do? mostly keep quiet but talk it out later
72. Who did you last chat in msn today? lambo
73. Who do you admire most? God
74. Which month are you born in? July
75. How are you feeling right now? bored
76. What is the time now? 10.04 pm
7. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is? nobody did.
78.What colour did you use to dye hair?i never dyed it b4, but im gonna do it soon with black (my white hair is killing my image)
79. Why are you doing this test?because im bored
80. What do you do when you're moody? speak less or more
81. At which age you wish to get married? 22 < x < 28 =)
82. Who is more important to you? my family. a precious gem. friends follow closely after.
83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do? call all of these impt ppl (see Q82) tgt to watch a movie, eat a meal, do a confession of all our feelings and thots n misunderstandings etc. and finally camp at some big field (the one near je mrt would b good) to watch as the day ends n i get taken away. LOL i didnt think my imagination was this vivid.
84. Who is the person you trust the most?my parents.
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain? i (try to) believe that nothing is actually rain in the long run
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be? i have alot of ideals. e.g. become a person who is both really smart and really charismatic. (oh c'mon ben, u know dats nvr gonna happen) sigh i dont know
87. What is your goal for this year? spend my hols wisely xD
88. Do you believe in eternity love? yes. the Lord my God.
89. What feeling do you love most? being surrounded by friends or family having fun
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now? yea those american nutcases should wake up to the facts
91.What feeling do you hate the most? anyth negative
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours? indeed i do. i just cant express it well. =(
93. Do you believe in God? yes.
94. Who cares for you most?God. but in a more pragmatic sense, my family.
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? i want it all, but to give up all but one i would leave my faith.
96. What will you bring when you fight? i dont like to fight. if i really need to kill someone i'd rather poison them. i have a mild psychological phobia for blood (i dont puke when i see it tho xD).
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life? to pick the most extreme case, the way i treated my frens in the past
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you? horrible of course.
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you? DUH screw both of them (my gf and that ass) to H*ll. of course i must reflect on whether it was partly my fault
100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW? still bored as hell.
01. What have you been doing recently? trying to get a life :)
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off? hardly bah...
03. What happened at 10.00am today? sending off a cousin back home at the airport with tears in my heart ... because theolo's coming (ps it passes damned quickly despite being like 23 days) and my hols are gonna be over right after tt.
04. When did you last cry? hmm recently :)
05. Believe in fate/destiny? nvr think abt such things. shit happens, period.
06. What do you want in your life right now? companionship (yes both quality and quantity count)
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood? umbrella
08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed? the pillow.
9. What bottom are you wearing now? shorts.
10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say? "i miss u all again" - my cousin.
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated? no idea man.
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone? no.
13. What was the last movie you caught? madagascar 2
14. What are you proud of? My nice laptop :)
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say? "What time?"
16. What was the last song you sang out loud? i just came back from church... so u get the idea
17.Do you have any nicknames? No. i dunno if i should b happy or not. xD
18. What does your last received text message say? U have missed calls from...
19. What time did you go to bed last night? i didnt
20. Are you currently happy? HECK NO. my hols are almost over.
21. Who gives you best advice? my family and friends.
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can? whipped cream makes u fat. throw that white turd away.
23. Who did you talk on phone last night? no one.
24. Is anything bugging you right now? yea. i m still mourning over my soon-ending hols
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh? Some church frens
26. Do you wear toe socks? a little
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from? i missed hundreds of calls. no idea
28. Have you ever had your heart broken? i guess so.
29. What annoys you most in a person? hmm nvr thot of that
30. Do you have a crush on anyone? well i used to
31. Have you ever done cocaine? nope. im very guai one. =)
32. What is the colour of your room?A light shade of cream
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars? honestly if it werent morally wrong i'd probably do it even if it cost me a billion dollars. but hey, hatred is a rare for me. seriously. :)
34. Do you believe in the saying of : talk is cheap? in a sense yes, cos its absolutely free.
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed? me.
36. Who was the last person to hug you? if im not wrong its my cousin xD
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed? i havent kissed anyone
38. Do you have a life? im trying to get one
39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didnt die? hmm nvr did
40. What is the reason behind your profile song? i have 31 of them -.-
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream? who bothers to rmb such shit
42. Last time you smiled? moments ago
43. Have you changed this year? yes. radically.
44. What are you listening right now? nothing... thankfully unlike my sister who was bothered by all that construction noise while doing this quiz
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this? no, sadly.
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed? well DUH open u idiot
47. Is there a quote you live by? no
48. Do you want someone you cannot have? hmm yupp i want them as my frens but i can nvr have them as my own (that would b selfish)
49. Have you ever played an instrument? yes. still playin it man
50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week? facebooking till 1am
51. What are you doing last night at 11pm? playing UNO with my sisters and getting owned
52. Are you happy with your love life right now? i dont have one.
53. What song best describe your love life? dude i said i dont have one
54. Does the person know that you like him/her? wrong question *slap*
55. Who always make you laugh? nice grammar lols. no one in particular, jus random humour from random ppl here n there
56. Do you speak other language other than English? Chinese Hokkien
57. Favourite website(s)? facebook, blogger, friendster, and wikipedia
58. What's your middle name? i dont have one
59. What are you doing tomorrow? packing for theolo
60. What do you think you are like? kitano from angel dendetsu
61. Who will you choose to die with? life's too good for one to choose to die, but in extreme cases mayb my family (includes wife n kids).
62. Where have you been today?home n church n senai
63. What game do you play often?Spore.
64. Who are you missing right now? maybe my cousins
65. If you have to choose between friendship and love, who will you choose? i wont choose. ill throw u off and get both xD c'mon guys both r important la
66. What are you doing right now?this 100 question thing
67. Which primary school are you from? Rulang Pri
68. Name 3 colours that you like? pick any 3
69. What emotion do you like to show? amusement
70. What is your life to you? the only thing i would exchange my life for
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do? mostly keep quiet but talk it out later
72. Who did you last chat in msn today? lambo
73. Who do you admire most? God
74. Which month are you born in? July
75. How are you feeling right now? bored
76. What is the time now? 10.04 pm
7. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is? nobody did.
78.What colour did you use to dye hair?i never dyed it b4, but im gonna do it soon with black (my white hair is killing my image)
79. Why are you doing this test?because im bored
80. What do you do when you're moody? speak less or more
81. At which age you wish to get married? 22 < x < 28 =)
82. Who is more important to you? my family. a precious gem. friends follow closely after.
83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do? call all of these impt ppl (see Q82) tgt to watch a movie, eat a meal, do a confession of all our feelings and thots n misunderstandings etc. and finally camp at some big field (the one near je mrt would b good) to watch as the day ends n i get taken away. LOL i didnt think my imagination was this vivid.
84. Who is the person you trust the most?my parents.
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain? i (try to) believe that nothing is actually rain in the long run
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be? i have alot of ideals. e.g. become a person who is both really smart and really charismatic. (oh c'mon ben, u know dats nvr gonna happen) sigh i dont know
87. What is your goal for this year? spend my hols wisely xD
88. Do you believe in eternity love? yes. the Lord my God.
89. What feeling do you love most? being surrounded by friends or family having fun
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now? yea those american nutcases should wake up to the facts
91.What feeling do you hate the most? anyth negative
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours? indeed i do. i just cant express it well. =(
93. Do you believe in God? yes.
94. Who cares for you most?God. but in a more pragmatic sense, my family.
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? i want it all, but to give up all but one i would leave my faith.
96. What will you bring when you fight? i dont like to fight. if i really need to kill someone i'd rather poison them. i have a mild psychological phobia for blood (i dont puke when i see it tho xD).
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life? to pick the most extreme case, the way i treated my frens in the past
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you? horrible of course.
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you? DUH screw both of them (my gf and that ass) to H*ll. of course i must reflect on whether it was partly my fault
100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW? still bored as hell.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
So much for freedom, crud.
YES I feel sooooooo free!!!!
And the day has finally come when the battle has been fought and its time to kick back and wait for the results for our exams. It feels sooooo liberating.
Yet, as I watch the day pass and look forward, i realise im becoming too free for comfort. All my friends have a class chalet coming and im stuck at home doing nothing -.-
A fine example would be how the day went after my final paper, that is mathematical logic (i know this is a nerdy subject but im no nerd, dude/gal).
I picked up my bag and decided to take 198 back home.
Took a nap once i was home (1 pm - 3 pm).
Upon waking up, I turned on my computer to realise I had new friends on Tagged. yay
Once i was done chatting with them, I suddenly realised that i had nothing else up for the rest of the day. At 4 pm in the afternoon.
What was i gonna do after that? No freaking idea.
so much for freedom, huh?
Well, i guess im gonna blog a little more for awhile to *hopefully only temporarily* kill some time, and look forward to some movie reviews , and wish me luck in getting a life. pish.
(PS : the above thing happened mayb also cos im too lazy to pick myself up and get outta the house)
Catcha later, guys!
And the day has finally come when the battle has been fought and its time to kick back and wait for the results for our exams. It feels sooooo liberating.
Yet, as I watch the day pass and look forward, i realise im becoming too free for comfort. All my friends have a class chalet coming and im stuck at home doing nothing -.-
A fine example would be how the day went after my final paper, that is mathematical logic (i know this is a nerdy subject but im no nerd, dude/gal).
I picked up my bag and decided to take 198 back home.
Took a nap once i was home (1 pm - 3 pm).
Upon waking up, I turned on my computer to realise I had new friends on Tagged. yay
Once i was done chatting with them, I suddenly realised that i had nothing else up for the rest of the day. At 4 pm in the afternoon.
What was i gonna do after that? No freaking idea.
so much for freedom, huh?
Well, i guess im gonna blog a little more for awhile to *hopefully only temporarily* kill some time, and look forward to some movie reviews , and wish me luck in getting a life. pish.
(PS : the above thing happened mayb also cos im too lazy to pick myself up and get outta the house)
Catcha later, guys!
Friday, October 31, 2008
Living it out for the day, and a wonderful closing to 2008
A Qn for you: What happened during the most memorable visit you paid to a relative/friend and when did it happen? (answer in a comment, email or tag if u're interested)
Anyway...
And after a week of hardship, it is not yet over. My EOYs are finally 3/4 over, and i only have 3 papers left to go, all of which I cant stand studying (History, logic, and history). TGIF!!!!
Friday nights are always a reliable buffer between one and one's undone work. xD
And there was the big history scare which i got today when sum1 invited my history classmate to a LAN session after today's paper, and my classmate replied, "No can do, got history." And I was like replying softly knowing that i studied nuts, "Wait. There's history?" And he was like, "YEA?" o.O ZOMG!
following my green-faced response, he replied calmly, "Next week what."
LOL. It was then I realised how near-sighted my recent life has become. i.e. I live too much for the day up to the point where i start sub-conciously intepreting (without clearing the air 1st) what others say to be "today". Geez. This worries me.
But, I guess I'll get to it later.
Anyway, its probably not a good idea to "live in the future" too much either. Drains your energy and yet u cant do anything about it. What's the point?
Yea yea I get it. Living too much in the present is just planning to fail in life. But live in the present at least a little. Life's too short for one to think ahead for evrything and too good for one to forgo the joys of the present. And I'll do my reflecting.
And planted right in the middle of my exam period is my EOY holiday to malacca! Went there, visited some cousins, had some fun, a bbq, and a late night movie, and took some really memorable pics. Generally had a blast. So much that I forgot my exams, at least at that time. And in this visit we probably had more bonding (as a whole group of cousins) than we ever had. If you wanna see the photos u can visit my facebook profile (add me!) and amongst the photo albums and the album title is really obvious. Benjamin Goh is my name.
I guess.... this holiday could be considered a good closing to 2008. It ended rather emotionally too.
And this then brings me to the question that i wanted to ask u : What happened during the most memorable visit you paid to a relative/friend and when did it happen? If u're willing, may you please share.
Anyway...
And after a week of hardship, it is not yet over. My EOYs are finally 3/4 over, and i only have 3 papers left to go, all of which I cant stand studying (History, logic, and history). TGIF!!!!
Friday nights are always a reliable buffer between one and one's undone work. xD
And there was the big history scare which i got today when sum1 invited my history classmate to a LAN session after today's paper, and my classmate replied, "No can do, got history." And I was like replying softly knowing that i studied nuts, "Wait. There's history?" And he was like, "YEA?" o.O ZOMG!
following my green-faced response, he replied calmly, "Next week what."
LOL. It was then I realised how near-sighted my recent life has become. i.e. I live too much for the day up to the point where i start sub-conciously intepreting (without clearing the air 1st) what others say to be "today". Geez. This worries me.
But, I guess I'll get to it later.
Anyway, its probably not a good idea to "live in the future" too much either. Drains your energy and yet u cant do anything about it. What's the point?
Yea yea I get it. Living too much in the present is just planning to fail in life. But live in the present at least a little. Life's too short for one to think ahead for evrything and too good for one to forgo the joys of the present. And I'll do my reflecting.
And planted right in the middle of my exam period is my EOY holiday to malacca! Went there, visited some cousins, had some fun, a bbq, and a late night movie, and took some really memorable pics. Generally had a blast. So much that I forgot my exams, at least at that time. And in this visit we probably had more bonding (as a whole group of cousins) than we ever had. If you wanna see the photos u can visit my facebook profile (add me!) and amongst the photo albums and the album title is really obvious. Benjamin Goh is my name.
I guess.... this holiday could be considered a good closing to 2008. It ended rather emotionally too.
And this then brings me to the question that i wanted to ask u : What happened during the most memorable visit you paid to a relative/friend and when did it happen? If u're willing, may you please share.
Monday, October 20, 2008
The calm before the storm... and psychological impressions!
Ah. fine u might not get the joke in the title but it doesnt matter
Anyw, after 3 months of struggling and slacking and struggling again, the calm before the storm has arrived. you know, the short period when thr's suddenly no homework or lessons whatsoever, yea those. and they are the sign that the long-forecasted storm has finally come - exams!!!
So its finally time to pick up the book and start flipping thru them as if i was really interested, its been kinda long since i last did this. Wish me luck.
Also i came up with several interesting maths ideas out of the blue and got to work on them too last saturday. but after awhile when i was finally done i decided to screw my homework and start watching tv. and the movie was nice. im gonna review it soon (so stay tuned, dear). and i slept at 2.30 am.
But what really attracted my interest this week was the idea of psychological impressions. In part, this was the background theme of the movie i watched, but the concept made more sense to me after i watched the movie, and it was in regard to the movie itself: i couldnt help but to remember the visceral (if u dunno what this means it means visual and apparent and sensate) details everywhere i go. its like the old macdonald's song-stuck in-ur-head kinda feeling. in fact, the impression was so deep i could hardly sleep after that (might already give u an idea of what kind of movie i watched).
I think that there are certain types of events that we as individuals are more sensitive to. then after they occur, we tend to become fixated with the visceral or emotional aspects of the event and if these feelings are negative they can drive us to extremes. take for example a kid who was abused from young. if the psychological trauma he suffered doesnt get aided he would become paranoid or in extreme(r) cases abusive when he becomes older. get what im trying to say?
You do? That's great.
Yea... and guess what? my school's internet screwed around with me, and now i cant do my work with my laptop in school. It just decided to not let me log into my school server acct no matter whether im connected to the server. and there goes any internet sessions in school. pish.
Finally, there's a drama serial on mediacorp TV channel 8 that seriously ROCKS! you should catch it asap if u can. its called Crime Busters x2 and its on at 9pm all weekdays. its funny, thrilling and at the same time.... (hmm whats that word...) plotty? ok lol i was just playing around basically it has good plot.
Catcha later!
Anyw, after 3 months of struggling and slacking and struggling again, the calm before the storm has arrived. you know, the short period when thr's suddenly no homework or lessons whatsoever, yea those. and they are the sign that the long-forecasted storm has finally come - exams!!!
So its finally time to pick up the book and start flipping thru them as if i was really interested, its been kinda long since i last did this. Wish me luck.
Also i came up with several interesting maths ideas out of the blue and got to work on them too last saturday. but after awhile when i was finally done i decided to screw my homework and start watching tv. and the movie was nice. im gonna review it soon (so stay tuned, dear). and i slept at 2.30 am.
But what really attracted my interest this week was the idea of psychological impressions. In part, this was the background theme of the movie i watched, but the concept made more sense to me after i watched the movie, and it was in regard to the movie itself: i couldnt help but to remember the visceral (if u dunno what this means it means visual and apparent and sensate) details everywhere i go. its like the old macdonald's song-stuck in-ur-head kinda feeling. in fact, the impression was so deep i could hardly sleep after that (might already give u an idea of what kind of movie i watched).
I think that there are certain types of events that we as individuals are more sensitive to. then after they occur, we tend to become fixated with the visceral or emotional aspects of the event and if these feelings are negative they can drive us to extremes. take for example a kid who was abused from young. if the psychological trauma he suffered doesnt get aided he would become paranoid or in extreme(r) cases abusive when he becomes older. get what im trying to say?
You do? That's great.
Yea... and guess what? my school's internet screwed around with me, and now i cant do my work with my laptop in school. It just decided to not let me log into my school server acct no matter whether im connected to the server. and there goes any internet sessions in school. pish.
Finally, there's a drama serial on mediacorp TV channel 8 that seriously ROCKS! you should catch it asap if u can. its called Crime Busters x2 and its on at 9pm all weekdays. its funny, thrilling and at the same time.... (hmm whats that word...) plotty? ok lol i was just playing around basically it has good plot.
Catcha later!
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Proof of human stupidity - lifted from 2flashgames
1. Only in America......can a pizza get to your house faster than an ambulance.
2. Only in America......are there handicap parking places in front of a skating rink.
3. Only in America......do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.
4. Only in America......do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke.
5. Only in America......do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.
6. Only in America......do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage.
7. Only in America......do we use answering machines to screen calls and then have call waiting so we won't miss a call from someone we didn't want to talk to in the first place.
8. Only in America......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight.
9. Only in America......do we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and 'tics' meaning 'bloodsucking creatures'.
10. Only in America......do they have drive-up ATM's with Braille lettering.
11.Only in America.....Will you go to a restraunt in seaworld and ask for bandaids and get mayonnaise
Why is it that to stop Windows 98, you have to click on "Start"?
Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?
Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?
Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?
Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?When dog food is new and improved tasting, who tests it?
Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?
Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?
You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff??
Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?
Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?
If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?
If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?
------------------ In case you needed further proof that the human race is doomed through stupidity, here are some actual label instructions on consumer goods:
On a Sears hairdryer: Do not use while sleeping. ( that's the only time I have to work on my hair).
On a bag of Frito's:! ..You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside. (the shoplifter special)?
On a bar of Dial soap: "Directions: Use like regular soap." (and that would be how???....)
On some Swanson frozen dinners: "Serving suggestion: Defrost." (but, it's "just" a suggestion).
On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom): "Do not turn upside down." (Oops, too late!)!On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding: "Product will be hot after heating." (...and you thought????...)
On packaging for a Rowenta iron: "Do not iron clothes on body." (but wouldn't this save me more time?)
On Nytol Sleep Aid: "Warning: May cause drowsiness." (and.. .I'm taking this because???....)
On Sunsbury's peanuts: "Warning: contains nuts." (talk about a news flash)
2. Only in America......are there handicap parking places in front of a skating rink.
3. Only in America......do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.
4. Only in America......do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke.
5. Only in America......do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.
6. Only in America......do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage.
7. Only in America......do we use answering machines to screen calls and then have call waiting so we won't miss a call from someone we didn't want to talk to in the first place.
8. Only in America......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight.
9. Only in America......do we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and 'tics' meaning 'bloodsucking creatures'.
10. Only in America......do they have drive-up ATM's with Braille lettering.
11.Only in America.....Will you go to a restraunt in seaworld and ask for bandaids and get mayonnaise
Why is it that to stop Windows 98, you have to click on "Start"?
Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?
Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?
Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?
Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?When dog food is new and improved tasting, who tests it?
Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?
Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?
You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff??
Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?
Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?
If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?
If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?
------------------ In case you needed further proof that the human race is doomed through stupidity, here are some actual label instructions on consumer goods:
On a Sears hairdryer: Do not use while sleeping. ( that's the only time I have to work on my hair).
On a bag of Frito's:! ..You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside. (the shoplifter special)?
On a bar of Dial soap: "Directions: Use like regular soap." (and that would be how???....)
On some Swanson frozen dinners: "Serving suggestion: Defrost." (but, it's "just" a suggestion).
On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom): "Do not turn upside down." (Oops, too late!)!On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding: "Product will be hot after heating." (...and you thought????...)
On packaging for a Rowenta iron: "Do not iron clothes on body." (but wouldn't this save me more time?)
On Nytol Sleep Aid: "Warning: May cause drowsiness." (and.. .I'm taking this because???....)
On Sunsbury's peanuts: "Warning: contains nuts." (talk about a news flash)
Spore!!!!! and the lawsuit
Ok. About 3 months ago, I bought a game called Sims 2 University (TM). So, it was fine, the usual point-and-click playing style where human-like bunches of pixels do ur bidding and live their lives the way u dictate them to. Sounds fun, huh? hahah
Yep. that's the box cover.
However, that's not the point.
I noticed that besides the manual, there was another EA brochure that gave a sneak peek to what other EA stuff was gonna b released. and I noticed this game called spore. and BTW its not "singapore" as in the shortform, as one of my uninformed frens thot it was. However, i paid little attention to it. that was in particular cos i was already determined to make sims2uni the last game im getting b4 the exams.
However, a few weeks after i got sims2uni, i saw this video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T8dvMDFOFnA
And i responded, "OMG! That's AWESOOME!"
and so went my resolution for not buying anymore games. I waited, and saved up in the process, and waited more, until I finally saw one of my frens holding it in my face. Then I went to CyberActive and raided the shop.
(just kidding la)
Basically, what you do in the beginning is that u play God by controlling a small organism u created in primordial fluid and take on other species of organisms in a fight to survive and procreate. Then as you get sufficiently large u get to go on land to interact amiably or hatefully with other organisms n later u set up a tribe, a civilization and rocket off into space. The whole process involves many rounds of redesigning, improving, etc on the part of ur organism, which is probably one of the selling pts of the game. In fact, u get to design lots of other stuff such as ur organism's tribal outfit, warfare weapons, boats, cars, homes, libraries, other buildings, spaceships, and u even get to terraform other planets! o.O
Overall, it is an epic game. You should try it. (at least dat was wad i would say)
But... just 4 days after i bought the game (whr i managed to reach the civilization stage), I received news that EA had been sued for attaching some harmful anti-viral software onto the SPORE software. So i verified the news. read this if u need some backgrnd knowledge. http://www.news.com.au/technology/story/0,25642,24405230-5014117,00.html
When i knew it was true i was lyk :" WTH. I installed this piece of crap onto my NEW ACER LAPTOP which cost 1k (im complaining precisely cos its cheap)!!!!! and my laptop looks so cool too!!!! rawrrrr!"
no wonder my com got weird when i ran the program. but thankfully it still runs fine, altho it gets weird when i start the game (the game doesnt start when i tell it to and tells me that an error occured by starting the game twice when i try to start again. it then starts normally)
oh well, SPORE still rocks and im still gonna play it as long as i can. Evolution is not really what I take to, but its still neat when u can make and share creations. hahah thats the new media for you, all that freedom of expression and sandbox gaming stuff.
but note this: i still hope EA gets its butt sued so that i can i get money (i really might get to, check out the demands of the lawsuit) to reformat my comp if anyth goes wrong becos of that stupid SecuROM software.
So there. A game that ROCKS, but must come with a program that sucks. you choose.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
My study sessions
Yo! Here I am to discuss a little about self-study sessions. Its those nights whr i put down the books/notes and start reading them as if i were genuinely interested. First, I shall give apersonal anecdote.
Scenario: EMSpec retest
And so this was how my (last min) study session for the EMSpec retest went. I had to take a retest cos I almost failed miserably in the 1st test (i got 23/40). I think it happened at least 3-4 weeks ago.
I came back from school and dilly-dallied.
After the usual dilly-dallying, I finally decided to take a shower. (7.30 pm)
Then I dragged my lazy body onto the bed and lazed a little more.
After complaining about how its so unfair that I must b all screwy with my studies (i really am getting lazy, crap) at this impt time I finally got to the desk, switched on my computer and started talking crap with some fwens.
After I finished the chatting, it was time to......
Sleep.
And thus ended my last minute study session for EMSpec reTest. I gotta admit that while I like the idea of studying hard for exams i cant sit down for more than an hour reading the same thing over and over. Its jus boring. Moreover, with 2 laptops filled with fresh, funfilled memory to use, its even harder to focus. So, one way i have come up to overcome the problem is to separate my study sessions from the computer as far as possible. yay
Of course, that's easier said than done, as many would agree. I do alot of my studying on wikipedia in supplement to my notes. Yea, the educational institutes may disregard it but its not that bad actually. It does have a strong information base to work with. So, I'm struggling with the problem of distraction while studying on wiki for my tests n exams. ><
Yep. So, bottom line, whenever i have a study session, and actually study, i use wiki.
PS. those who know my EMSpec results should note that i did study the next morning.
Scenario: EMSpec retest
And so this was how my (last min) study session for the EMSpec retest went. I had to take a retest cos I almost failed miserably in the 1st test (i got 23/40). I think it happened at least 3-4 weeks ago.
I came back from school and dilly-dallied.
After the usual dilly-dallying, I finally decided to take a shower. (7.30 pm)
Then I dragged my lazy body onto the bed and lazed a little more.
After complaining about how its so unfair that I must b all screwy with my studies (i really am getting lazy, crap) at this impt time I finally got to the desk, switched on my computer and started talking crap with some fwens.
After I finished the chatting, it was time to......
Sleep.
And thus ended my last minute study session for EMSpec reTest. I gotta admit that while I like the idea of studying hard for exams i cant sit down for more than an hour reading the same thing over and over. Its jus boring. Moreover, with 2 laptops filled with fresh, funfilled memory to use, its even harder to focus. So, one way i have come up to overcome the problem is to separate my study sessions from the computer as far as possible. yay
Of course, that's easier said than done, as many would agree. I do alot of my studying on wikipedia in supplement to my notes. Yea, the educational institutes may disregard it but its not that bad actually. It does have a strong information base to work with. So, I'm struggling with the problem of distraction while studying on wiki for my tests n exams. ><
Yep. So, bottom line, whenever i have a study session, and actually study, i use wiki.
PS. those who know my EMSpec results should note that i did study the next morning.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
The Grand Opening! *hurray*
Hello world! After 2 years of abstinence I've decided to return to the blogging scene and hopefully share my two cents' worth of thoughts regarding... practically anything. In case any might not be aware, I used to have another blog called 'Triplethumbspin' at http://16925810.blogspot.com/. (Hehe... ppl used to marvel at how i remembered that string of numbers, i will get around to that sometime down the road). Of course that emo blog has been removed and here I am! to replace it once again, excluding that nobody-understands-me-i-hate-my-life flavour which used to be so prevalent.
Haha... however, i may still wanna vent some of my frustrations here, so do be prepared. :D
Amongst many other things, I may be discussing about some practical issues that plague(d) my life (and by extension, typical teens' lives), so do feel free to tag/comment me with some questions that u ppl have and i might choose a few to blog about (that is, only if they're genuine issues).
That said, i have no other promises as to what may appear on this blog. Any correlation with persons, real-life (dead or alive lol) or fictitious is purely coincidental. ^^
Haha... however, i may still wanna vent some of my frustrations here, so do be prepared. :D
Amongst many other things, I may be discussing about some practical issues that plague(d) my life (and by extension, typical teens' lives), so do feel free to tag/comment me with some questions that u ppl have and i might choose a few to blog about (that is, only if they're genuine issues).
That said, i have no other promises as to what may appear on this blog. Any correlation with persons, real-life (dead or alive lol) or fictitious is purely coincidental. ^^
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